Friday, April 17, 2015

Dream ON!!


Oh!! Yes!! It’s raining again. The unseasonal rains brought with them a stunning weather in Hyderabad. It was a lovely morning. As it drizzled, tiny droplets of rain started touching my cheeks. I realized how a rain in summer makes a difference. It was even lovelier as I had taken a leave and was going to see my relatives. So bunking office made my day.

Unlike every day I didn’t have to rush because there was no one to monitor my presence. Believe me; I never was so relieved after jumping into the corporate life. As I was enjoying the weather and walked slowly, I observed everyone around me. All were in a hurry, and most of them were wearing their company’s ID cards and running to catch their buses. Even before starting their routine, they looked very exhausted. Frankly, you can find me also in the same situation every other day.

After I reached the bus stop I decided to take an AC bus. But soon, I realized we can't have luxury all our life. And yeah, I could have booked the cab, but sadly all the offers were exhausted. So, with much reluctance I got into a local bus and as usual the bus was heavily crowded. I tried hard to get into the bus and my huge luggage bag (You know…I couldn’t compromise on that even for a day!!) added to difficulty. It was hard to even set a foot on the bus, but somehow I managed to get inside. An old lady, who was sitting in the bus, was watching my struggle and offered a helping hand. I gave her a sheepish smile and placed my bag on her lap. I felt comfortable after some time and I felt, sometimes things may not end up as worse as we imagine.

As the bus neared the next stop, few school girls got into the bus. They were looking fresh and neatly dressed. One girl smiled at me and asked me to pass the money to the conductor. Now my attention was on this school girl. She looked very eager to go to school, unlike me (Universal fact... We do hate going office). But, she reflected whatever I was, when I was her age; so confident!! The enthusiasm in her eyes had a hunger for life. I used to feel like I can achieve anything; literally anything and I believe that every one of us used to feel the same when we were kids. But, I really don't understand why all of us lose that zeal with the age. Why we become so passive? May be we are habituated to be happy with whatever we have. Yes, I agree that self-satisfaction is good, but won’t it be great if we can enjoy our life with what we have and living with a passion to make the world a better place?? So what exactly has changed now?? We all stopped dreaming… Isn't it?

We no longer have the enthusiasm to become the movie star, whom we used to dream about day and night. We have forgotten to fill those drawing sheets with paints and imaginations, in turn forgetting that we would become great painters one day. We don’t even think about the possibilities of what we wanted to become. May be it looks silly or impossible now, but one thing is for sure; “It has all changed!” Now, all we need are Savings, mutual funds, luxurious car, plush apartment and a perfect life. Aren't we missing these few blocks of a puzzle??



Go on! Sing that favourite song aloud which you used to sing behind bathroom doors. Cut all your t-shirts and become the designer you wanted to be. Do all that crazy stuffs you always wanted to do and last but not the least, Dream On!! We never know when your dreams come true.

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Be A Strength

 

“Sometimes I just feel blank and I cry for no reason. I don't know why. Is it because of PMS (Pre Menstrual Syndrome) that every girl faces? But it’s not only those times. Even when everything is normal, I have felt void around me. I feel hope less. I fear for nothing. I lose my appetite. I just wish someone comes to me and ask me “how are you?, have you eaten something?” I feel like hugging someone and cry for hours. There is no problem. No even a reason. Yet, I feel like crying. Tears just won't stop. If I share with people, they get irritated with me. They look at me as a weak girl and stupid too. They just can't make out what I’m crying for. They feel I'm wasting time or I'm crying as I feel bored. 

I will be waiting for a smile which soothes me. I will be waiting for a shoulder to cry on. It’s just that I don't want to feel alone. I feel helpless. I don't know whom to share. I cry and cry, but tears never stopped. I try to distract myself. I hit the gym or watch a movie, but again end of the day I feel blank. I don't know what my life will be like.

I will be scared of future or I feel bad for something that happened in the past. I will be scared of losing loved ones or I will cry for someone who can never be part of my life. The thought process will never stop and it will grow exponentially. I thought this happens only when am in bad times. But I don't get it why it is happening when everything is perfect? I’m all grown up, achieved a lot and I manage everything at work place and social life as well. Personal life is much better. When these feelings go deeper and deeper, I feel like dying some times. It’s very difficult to stop such thoughts. I cry for hours continuously. And it’s not like I cry only on my bed after every one slept, there are at times I just sat on road side and cried for hours waiting for someone to rescue me. But no one comes. Everyone have priorities in their life and at that time, I won't be one among them. And what’s more painful is, they just feel all this is silly.”
 
- By young female who suffered from depression

Have you ever seen some one in that state? And you felt that is silly? Is that all we can think of a person we know? Why people can't help when someone facing mental illness? There must be something bothering them, which they don't like to share or even they don't know what's wrong with them. How much time it will take for saying that person 'Don't worry, I'm with you'. They don't need all your life. They just need little support when they need help. Be it support, confidence or some inspiration, you might be giving them strength for life time. A hope to live. Even when you just listen to them, it makes lot of difference.
 
Be a strength to those who needs you.  

(Mental Health Awareness Week, 11-17 May)