Be A Strength

 

“Sometimes I just feel blank and I cry for no reason. I don't know why. Is it because of PMS (Pre Menstrual Syndrome) that every girl faces? But it’s not only those times. Even when everything is normal, I have felt void around me. I feel hope less. I fear for nothing. I lose my appetite. I just wish someone comes to me and ask me “how are you?, have you eaten something?” I feel like hugging someone and cry for hours. There is no problem. No even a reason. Yet, I feel like crying. Tears just won't stop. If I share with people, they get irritated with me. They look at me as a weak girl and stupid too. They just can't make out what I’m crying for. They feel I'm wasting time or I'm crying as I feel bored. 

I will be waiting for a smile which soothes me. I will be waiting for a shoulder to cry on. It’s just that I don't want to feel alone. I feel helpless. I don't know whom to share. I cry and cry, but tears never stopped. I try to distract myself. I hit the gym or watch a movie, but again end of the day I feel blank. I don't know what my life will be like.

I will be scared of future or I feel bad for something that happened in the past. I will be scared of losing loved ones or I will cry for someone who can never be part of my life. The thought process will never stop and it will grow exponentially. I thought this happens only when am in bad times. But I don't get it why it is happening when everything is perfect? I’m all grown up, achieved a lot and I manage everything at work place and social life as well. Personal life is much better. When these feelings go deeper and deeper, I feel like dying some times. It’s very difficult to stop such thoughts. I cry for hours continuously. And it’s not like I cry only on my bed after every one slept, there are at times I just sat on road side and cried for hours waiting for someone to rescue me. But no one comes. Everyone have priorities in their life and at that time, I won't be one among them. And what’s more painful is, they just feel all this is silly.”

 

- By young female who suffered from depression

Have you ever seen some one in that state? And you felt that is silly? Is that all we can think of a person we know? Why people can't help when someone facing mental illness? There must be something bothering them, which they don't like to share or even they don't know what's wrong with them. How much time it will take for saying that person 'Don't worry, I'm with you'. They don't need all your life. They just need little support when they need help. Be it support, confidence or some inspiration, you might be giving them strength for life time. A hope to live. Even when you just listen to them, it makes lot of difference.

 

Be a strength to those who needs you.  

(Mental Health Awareness Week, 11-17 May)